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Destiny Bond
02:57
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You can’t save me
But I can drag you down
I’m all talk, baby
with every line scripted
by the most gifted writers
I’m a stack full of lies with a handful of charm
I have less reflection than a ghost in the mirror
So tell me again what you see in me
Synonymous with what you fear
Though I attempt to be the opposite
I’m a cinder block hanging by your heel
We’ll never fall in love I can’t even love myself I’m not good for your health
You don’t seem to understand
I hope you find
What you’re looking for
Cause’ darling I’m just not your type
There’s nothing I can do to make this worth your time My perfect fairytale
Has turned into dust
In the palm of my heart
Just like everything else does
I'm so conflicted it waters me down
My life's a mess you don't want any part in
You can do better
You can do better
You can do better than me
Patience
It hasn’t been your friend
You need to learn to let me go
Before my poison sinks too deep
We have no promises to keep
Are your starry eyes too bright to see the truth I’m nothing that you need
I’m so conflicted it waters me down
My life’s a mess you don’t want any part in
You can do better
You can do better
You can do better than me
You miss me again
Well what did you forget
to cry on my shoulder
or the warmth of my bed
You miss me again
Well what did you forget
to cry on my shoulder
or the warmth of my bed
I should be an afterthought in your pretty little head I should be an afterthought in your pretty little head You can’t save me,
But I can drag you down
You won’t save me
And I will drag you down
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Diamond Skin
02:48
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How can you breathe so easy with your head in the clouds
How are your legs not shaking from that balancing act
My sincerest of apologies
But your inconsistencies are impossible to hide
You’re the queen but you don’t seem to be
One to show your scars off in the slightest
When I look at you I see a ghost of shame Insisting on pain
When you don’t know what you’ve done wrong
It’s three AM when the monsters wake
I wish I knew how to chase them away
I’ll be here for as long as it takes
But I’m running low on what words to say
It’s times like these that sleep never finds me
I’m up all night wondering
If you’re as strong as you seem or if you’re scared like me
Are you just scared like me?
I’ve become so afraid
That all of your problems are out of my reach
You never really needed me at all
I feel like I failed us both
I’ve spent days trying to decide
Which knife I should use to lobotomize
The rotting tumors inside my brain
They’re always whispering, “You’re not okay.”
Movies on repeat of where I’ve been
There’s mold growing under my hardened skin
It pulls my strings, I’m a marionette
It won’t die unless I die with it
I’m ashamed that I
Can’t help but be affected by the path you chose
Turns out its all my fault
That you made so many mistakes
This is all the consequence
Of running away
It brought you so much pain
I’m so sorry for everything
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Her blood begins to thin
He goes in for a kiss
He lifts her on the counter
She decides to submit
But she stops him there
And goes back to her drink
This will be the end of it
At least that’s what she thinks
She has another bottle and she stumbles up the stairs
The man from before follows her and he’s prepared
She thinks these people are her friends so she gives them all her trust
Take it easy
Don’t fall asleep tonight
Don’t close your eyes
Just don’t close your eyes
You’re really not that safe
But you deserve to be
You shouldn’t have to heed
My warnings
Dumbing down her senses with every sip she takes
Pretty soon her so-called friends will leave her there as prey
The room is slowly spinning
She can’t follow what they say
They leave her one by one
Their voices start to fade
She fights to stay awake but by her eyes she is betrayed
Take it easy
Don’t fall asleep tonight
Don’t close your eyes
Just don’t close your eyes
You’re really not that safe
But you deserve to be
You shouldn’t have to heed
My warnings
And I wish I could change The things he did
But we both know that I can’t No I can’t.... No I can’t
No
Keep your control
Don’t let it go
Kick, scream and bite
Fight back tonight
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Staring at the ceiling and plotting out the course of my misdirection
I’m falling back, just take me back
Measuring the time by the comings
and goings and stirrings in my own bed
This bed is my island and all the room is my sea,
I’ve been stranded here for weeks and weeks just waiting for some help,
Spending my time drinking poisonous water; hoping someday soon some sense will return to me
Composure
We’re all suitors to the dead
But I’ll be the warmest amongst the deceased
...Risking safety
My best intentions, whaddaya know? Guess it turns out they were all joke Left for dead, but I didn’t die
Just got a view of horizontal life
Left hands scars, formed from what? My childish ways and bottle of rum
Looking back, can’t find a reason
For all the things I’ve done
What’s the point of you alive in my head
when it fills me with nothing but loathing and dread
write the words and throw them away
burn all the things that I wanted to say
Should step outside and clean my head
And then I thought of something so damn simple it almost sounded profound
Favoring solitude
Locked in this room
No reason for this
No reason at all
Alter my reflection to hide it from view
I won’t fall victim to
This endless string of broken promises
I’ve heard from so many sources of endless disappointment
Everyone’s the same
Time has taught me well
I’ve been so tutored by
being awake all this...
Time has made me well
I feel augmented by
These lessons learned through so
Who am I
To let you change my mind?
You were never my light
Your absence won’t be dark
My hands
They’re open
You can’t love a heart that’s broken
I’m not that fragile
I’ll never be shattered
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S.W.A.G.E.
03:25
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Cold and weary, suicide appearing
laying awake with the bottle steering
Constant regression, thoughts obscene
rotting in every possibility
No
Wake up darling, there’s something here
Your blood still flows and you can breathe the air
The sun will rise, my life is mine
can't remember the last time it crossed my mind.
There’s comfort to be had in stories of the past
Today I found out what to do with this existence
My courage is swelling up to deal with this endeavor
I’m losing my restraints. I’m rising to the challenge
Of being a man you’d be proud to sleep next to at night
Turn off the lights on this moonlit sky
As it calls out to the sun
Missing its lover’s warmth
So far away
It’s cold outside; forget your coat
Are friends are close; they keep us warm
We’ll take a chance, it’ll be all right
we lost the way, but we can spark a light
Stay up, get tired and laugh yourself hoarse
We can sort it all out as long as we stay the stay the course
We pour out our fears to the world
These beating hearts will never find rest
Pave them with gold and we’ll laugh ourselves home
Someday we’ll all ascend
(Give up the gun, you’ll find your worth in time)
Until then like the autumn leaves we’ll make our peace with the ground
Faultless in this moment
The future’s looking sound
Look inside, release your mind
From warped mirror vision, self induced lies
Broken limbs heal in time
Someday you’ll forget you’ll be just fine
I’ve come to realize how beautiful this life has been to me
Given the chance, I wouldn’t change a single thing
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Cessation
01:50
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7. |
A Swanlike Ending
04:37
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Another night watching as your backside
Dwindles away under the street lights
Holding myself back from screaming
“I think I know where home is”
If I could I’d go back
Rearrange the timeline of you and I
But I can’t so I’ll be waiting
And to me, that’s just fine
Jealousy, take me under
To the bottom of the sea
I’m hoping you will find me soon
Come save me
No one needs recluse
But baby I need you
How could you give a damn about a girl That never cared for you...
You’ve turned things around
You’ve taken them all for yourself
There was a time
When I could believe
Every single word you said
No matter how far you went
But I was a fool
Now I’m the only one left in this room to reflect
On the past that I regret
Dear doctor
My prayer’s lost
She became what she never was (no no)
You can’t re-angle love
While you seem so set in stone
I’ve been erasing everything that I have learned
Not to trust
Wait for me
Being devoured isn’t the worst of things I guess
(I guess I’ll sit and watch the waves
Break on the shoreline while I wait
Twelve dead months, more on their way
I don’t care how long you take to see)
I’m so sick of love
You’ve turned things around
You’ve taken them all for yourself
I’m just a mark in the sand
Where you planned to ascend
(Stare through your eyes just to let you know
That I fall apart when I watch you go
Stare through your eyes just to let you know
That I fall apart when I watch you go)
There was a time
When I could believe
Every single word you said
No matter how far you went
But I was a fool
Now I’m the only one left in this room to reflect
on the past that I regret
I think I know where home is
I know I won’t be a ghost forever
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